i just typed up an entire update talking about my weekend on the 4th and me giving head for the first time and how i made his toes go numb and completely opened the floor for ideas on what works in the bedroom and what doesnt and then i went to post it and it was completely lost....

then i futher explained that my connection to my camera was chewed so there will me no art til further notice and that i got a joc at LC and its a pain in the ass but i need the money..

wish you guys could have had the whole bit cuz it was what i thought a fucking sweet post... try to understand all that i was going for in the condenst version.

life has a way of flying past us even when we feel like its taking its time.

man i've missed the stream. to sum up the past couple of months:
prom was a lot of fun minus the music and hell yes to the after party but then you have to minus the miss comunication the next morning and the fact that i still havent gone to the beach.

AP art final exam/test i'm hoping went well i wont find out the results until the second week of july nor will i get back my art work til then.

final: umm its sad that i didnt study for the three i had. i did look ovr my notes for physics but i knew it was usless. i got my grades back a day or so ago and i did better on the vergil one than the physics. im good at randomly picking from multiple choice i guess.

my big 18 left something to be desired. dont get me wrong i had a wonderful weekend, but it could have been a little better if my family was a little more involved.

graduation was phenominal!
i was so happy once i got that diploma. i even made the big tough red neck cry. it was nice. once again i have him in the palm of my hand.
the grad party was absolutly amazing. wished my camera's batteries weren't dead though. i won a microwave which was pretty sweet. and i took more than a couple cases of soda b4 i left. say word to ten fingers.

yea the day after consisted of a lot of sleeping.

and now the summer...
i was suposed to have 2 jobs and at this moment i have zero. hopefully that'll change because money is really tight.
and i was hoping that less class time would involve more B-man time. unfortunatly this is not true. He has finacial issues as well and gas money keeps on rising. so being together is getting harder, but our love is stronger than ever.
but its nice because i'll be seeing him tomorrow and i'm very excited.
other than all that i've been trying to find ways to make my days go by that much faster but still enjoy them. the xBox and playing tennis basically sums it up so far.

this weekend: will be the fourth of july weekend and with the plans set as they are, it should be the best july 4th ever. considering i usually have the worst day on any holiday i think it'll be nice having once decent holiday. BBQ's, fireworks, parties, and swimming,... and more fireworks? hell yea more fireworks!!!

im hoping that i become more motivated to get started on more artwork. because its sad that i don't do more. its not even lack of inspiration, i have it all in my head but i have no umph to get it out.

but i have finished my ceiling... yup i covered it in cd's





i wish it would reflect better but it makes it more fun that way. and fyi i changed most of those posters

so everyone seems to be having a pretty damn great life right now ... and I'm truley happy for all y'all. just take my advise and truley enjoy it.

for i was given an early B-day present. yea that would be this great emotional breakdown and the lack of money for a fun after party and a giant fight with my sister (kaylee) and for the one love of my life to have to see me in the blackest part of my world.

yup happy early birthday to me. just wondering how wonderful next weekend will be.

"'Cause you can't jump the track, we're like cars on a cable
And life's like an hourglass, glued to the table
No one can find the rewind button, girl.
So cradle your head in your hands
And breathe... just breathe,
Oh breathe, just breathe"
~2am (breath)~ anna nalick

ta'

migraine- this one was inspired by you

class assignment, finished in two periods... first time working with oil pastels ... it was a lot different that acrylic paint i'll tell you that, but it was a lot of fun too.